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Well today i started talking to this boy named Michael. He is really cute and i just might do something about that soon. IDK.

sexy monkey

So yeah....im hyper and its 11:08 and i get to go on a feild trip to camden tomorrow....ha take that suckers. Well i am way too tired to be awake right now but im having fun nonetheless cause i am talking to my friends....unfortunately not my crush...boo.

IM BORED

So i havent blogged on this blog in a while.....im bored. yeah thats about all i have to say bye

Ugh

So im here in ISP because we dont have gym since it is friday. I hate not having gym, it effin sucks sooo much. I have nothing to do except stupid school work and listen to random butt music on my iPod. Oh and get hit with a bouncy ball that Pat and Jimmy are playing with. It keeps me on my toes but if i miss then i get hit. Oh well its still fun.

Stupid Website

Ok so I'm trying to create another blog so I can do my English assignment of blogging for writer's notebook and it says that I need to verify my account. I've tried on multiple phones to do this and it won't let me. WHAT THE HELL. I finally got pissed off enough to fill out a complaint form. Let's hope they decide to fix the stupid problem, and if they don't.....well idk what but something will happen....and it won't be good.

WTH

Ok so remember how I told you all yesterday that I got my phone back. Well guess again, last night my mom got angry because we werent cleaning so she took away our laptops and cell phones. Not to be mean or anything but I just got the thing back and then she strolls along and decides that I'm not allowed to have it. What the hell. I literally had it for a day and a half (if that). It makes no sense, I mean why give me back something I cant live without then take it away.

Im BORED

So I got my phone back yesterday. IM SOO HAPPY. I'm the type of person who can hardly go a few hours without a phone and I hardly noticed that the month had gone by.

Im alone in the universe

Ok first of all I know that the title for this post is also the title of a song from Suessical. I DONT CARE. I know that there are people out there who say they care and they love me, but for some reason I dont feel like they mean it. I guess that this is what its like to be an empath. Always feeling alone, never knowing how you truly feel, never being able to truly love someone, or to even feel the love someone holds for you. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and don't know what to do with myself. Somedays I just want to crawl into a fuggin corner and just cry my eyes out. I've done it before and will do it again, I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK OR SAY ABOUT IT. I think too much to be with someone and know what it feels like to be happy for myself, sometimes I will sit on the bus with my back on the bottom of the seat and my head hanging out in the aisle. Idk why but for some reason that helps me to think clearer. I have spent the whole bus ride to ocean city like that with music blaring in my ears. Thats another thing I do to think, I blare music/musicals so that I dont get distracted, it doesn't matter where I am. If I need to think I will walk away from my friends and go sit in a corner and blare music and think. I will also sometimes get up and dance until I no longer can or until I fall and hurt myself cause I was too busy thinking about something to pay attention.

Liars

I really hate people who lie/get your hopes up. They will sit there and say things like "I love you", "I want this to work", "its not you its me", "I still want to be friends". All lies. They say these things and your heart flutters but then they go and say/do something behind your backs and you know for a fact that they were always lying to you. It hurts....if you do this, never think that it will be easy for the person you do it to. It will crush them and they will never be the same.

Drama within the Drama

Ok so right now im in school and i really want to get up and just walk to some random place that i know......i cant deal with anymore of the drama. I dont feel like it anymore. If i have to listen to her beach (sensoring myself) anymore i will seriously walk away from all of this. I dont want to so i might just walk and walk till i cant go any further, then walk another 5 miles.

Raised Voices

So today Mrs. Bles called all of Performing Arts into a seminar room. Once we were in the room she had us all sit down. Then she started yelling at us because someone in the class defiled one of the posters for our show. Im not gonna lie I've been yelled at by a director before but Mrs. Bles scares the crap out of me when she yells. She is a really powerful person and she knows exactly how to hit you were it hurts when telling you this type of shit. I can't wait for this stupid show to be over because then hopefully most of the drama in drama will be over.

Crying

So i remembered something from my childhood once and i just remembered it again. Whenever i start to cry and there is something to chew on i automatically chew. Its my one resource to stop the crying. And in finding this out i realized that this is why i am an emotional eater. The chewing helps to calm the flow of tears.

Firefox

So i decided to try out firefox instead of internet explorer.......its different but i like it quite a lot.

Make up is EVIL

So i have to put on stage make up for shop and it is killing my eyes. I think that i am having a major allergic reaction to it. My eye-lids burn and it hurts to scratch the sleep out of my eye. It also hurts to rub them when im having an allergy attack. UGH MAKE UP IS EVIL BEYOND WORDS.

Insomnia

See i dont think i have insomnia but i like to wish i did. Because for a long time now i have been falling asleep at like 2 in the morning without even trying to. And now my eyes hurt. Im not sure why but i want the pain to go away.

Empath

So I am an empath. It isn't really all that fun, but it can be depending on what you do with it. Some people see it as a curse and others as a gift. I see it as both (i see many things on both sides of the spectrum). It can be a gift when you help those that you love to heal both emotionally and physically (once you get to that strength of empathy). But on the other side of the spectrum it is a curse because you will randomly pick up another person's emotions without trying. In some cases if the emotions are strong enough you will begin to feel them yourself. This will happen to you forever if you are an empath unless you exercise the ability to block other's emotions from your mind. Gtg love ya'll

Day of Silence

So today is the Day of Silence. It is a very important event for me because it basicaly states that if you choose to support LGBT students you can be quiete all day. Their dream is to create a world where noone is bullied for being Lesbian Gay Bi-sexual or Transgender. This is an amazing opportunity to help the youth of today. A lot of people are made fun of because they are/are thought to be lesbian gay bi or transgeneder. So if you read this blog and you want to help and support them visit this site http://www.dayofsilence.org/index.cfm it will be amazing. Annual day of action to protest the bullying and harassment of lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender (LGBT) students and their supporters. Students take a day-long vow of silence to symbolically represent the silencing of LGBT students and their supporters. Please help them and us.

About me

I dont really like using the about me space to write about me. Besides all the things you might need to know probably wont fit in that space.
So here I go....as I already said my name is Jason Melcher and I am 16. I go to a vocational/technical school in New Jersey (not telling which one you stalkers). I am in the Performing Arts program. I am a dancer first then a singer then an actor. That is my way of life, if you dont like it then you can go somewhere. I have a lot of friends/aquantances, very few of which I talk/share stuff with. I love to txt so much that when my mom took away my phone last time I took out the SIM card and put it into another phone and used it for 2 days before finally getting caught. Now I have lost it for a month, I get it back on May 6th. That's it for this update. Have fun, live life to the fullest, don't ever care about what people think about you, be CRAZY.

Addiction

Ok I admit it. I've become addicted to bloging. So i shall say. "Hello my name is Jason Melcher and I am addicted to bloging." Now you all say "Hello Jason." in a monotonous tone

busses

Ugh i just missed the bus because Tim didnt get me out of the shower because he didnt realize what time it was. That and if i had left without kevin i wouldnt be alive anymore.

School

Ugh this place is soo boring. I wish I went to school with some of my better friends like Sara Stockman. She has been like my sister since 1st grade when I met her. We went to the same school in 1st grade then she transfered for 2nd then came back in 3rd and we'd been going to the same school since then. Unitl last year that is. Last year she started getting virtigo and such, her mom blamed the school because it was apparently stressing her out too much. Her mom made her transfer halfway through the year. She was sent to her churches school with a slight chance to come back this year or next. Her mom decided that the chances that she would come back was never so now she goes to Triton. I really miss her and wish we could hang out some time soon.

Doctor Who

I'm not gonna lie I'm a fan of Doctor Who. That is why there is a countdown till the new Doctor Who on my blog page. I can't wait till the newest season comes out. I wonder if the new Doctor will be any good.....I really hope he is otherwise I'll be uber sad.

Bored

So here I am in school bored out of my mind. I am supposed to be doing a project on the atomic bomb. I have an over due project for perforing arts where I am supposed to make a rehersal schedule for the 2nd act of Cabaret. I haven't even started the project for Othello and that was due like last month. Then I have to do an interveiw project for Spanish. Oh and of course my music director/teacher still hasnt taught me the song that i need to sing in the show that goes up in a little over 2 weeks. This is going to be a fun day..........not.

Role Playing

Hey so im the kind of kid who will sit on his laptop and role play. Btw im doing that right now. Its awesome.

Hello

So this is my own personal blog. I have one that is shared with my 2 brothers and my dad but I'd like to have one all to my own. This is me just ranting.