IM BORED

So i havent blogged on this blog in a while.....im bored. yeah thats about all i have to say bye

Ugh

So im here in ISP because we dont have gym since it is friday. I hate not having gym, it effin sucks sooo much. I have nothing to do except stupid school work and listen to random butt music on my iPod. Oh and get hit with a bouncy ball that Pat and Jimmy are playing with. It keeps me on my toes but if i miss then i get hit. Oh well its still fun.

Stupid Website

Ok so I'm trying to create another blog so I can do my English assignment of blogging for writer's notebook and it says that I need to verify my account. I've tried on multiple phones to do this and it won't let me. WHAT THE HELL. I finally got pissed off enough to fill out a complaint form. Let's hope they decide to fix the stupid problem, and if they don't.....well idk what but something will happen....and it won't be good.

WTH

Ok so remember how I told you all yesterday that I got my phone back. Well guess again, last night my mom got angry because we werent cleaning so she took away our laptops and cell phones. Not to be mean or anything but I just got the thing back and then she strolls along and decides that I'm not allowed to have it. What the hell. I literally had it for a day and a half (if that). It makes no sense, I mean why give me back something I cant live without then take it away.

Im BORED

So I got my phone back yesterday. IM SOO HAPPY. I'm the type of person who can hardly go a few hours without a phone and I hardly noticed that the month had gone by.

Im alone in the universe

Ok first of all I know that the title for this post is also the title of a song from Suessical. I DONT CARE. I know that there are people out there who say they care and they love me, but for some reason I dont feel like they mean it. I guess that this is what its like to be an empath. Always feeling alone, never knowing how you truly feel, never being able to truly love someone, or to even feel the love someone holds for you. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and don't know what to do with myself. Somedays I just want to crawl into a fuggin corner and just cry my eyes out. I've done it before and will do it again, I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK OR SAY ABOUT IT. I think too much to be with someone and know what it feels like to be happy for myself, sometimes I will sit on the bus with my back on the bottom of the seat and my head hanging out in the aisle. Idk why but for some reason that helps me to think clearer. I have spent the whole bus ride to ocean city like that with music blaring in my ears. Thats another thing I do to think, I blare music/musicals so that I dont get distracted, it doesn't matter where I am. If I need to think I will walk away from my friends and go sit in a corner and blare music and think. I will also sometimes get up and dance until I no longer can or until I fall and hurt myself cause I was too busy thinking about something to pay attention.